Letter I wrote to Cosmo magazine...wanted to share with you...

"I have not read cosmo since college...back then I read it regularly. The other day my friend dropped off some magazines (we each buy some and trade after we have read them)...anyway, she brought me your most recent issue. I have to say I was a little disappointed. I see your magazine is still about the same stuff it was 20 years ago...not only the same topics, but the same content...the main theme being...MEN..."how to please a man, how to get a man, how not to lose a man, how men think,...yada yada yada..." Now, I realize being a married women approaching 40 I am probably not your target audience, but can't you give young women something else to strive for, other than their entire existence revolving aroung men??? I mean, are you guys rehashing old issues or can you not think of something new and more clever to write about? Your magazine is all about sex and how to get, keep it, and be good at it...I would discourage my daughter from reading this when she gets older, simply because I think Cosmo gives young women the wrong ideas about life as young women...can't you mix in with all the sex and men talk more features on important issues for young women...finances, self esteem, volunteering, being a good role model...I guess since I am older now and seeing Cosmo from a different perspective, you could argue that I am simply out of touch...but maybe you are the ones out of touch...you take advantage of your readers...you are assuming all young women are sex crazed and love starved...they are so much more...but, they will never know if they keep reading your magazine."

Email me blog links please.

I reinstalled aol to an easier version and I lost a lot of my bookmarks...including all the blogs! Can you guys please email me your blog addresses so I can follow :) Thanks in advance...as far as me...I am okay...tired all the time, but I am working and getting out of the house when it is either raining or evening...it is too hot otherwise. We got two new kittens the other day...yes, I am a sucker...my daughter just has to look at me with her big brown eyes and I am a sucker big time! They are Sox and Bella...sisters and very cute...the local Humane Society offers 2 for 1 on kittens...so how can I say no? Plus, far be it from me to separate siblings! They are black and white and as cute as can be and my daughter has been great taking care of them...she is very good with the pets...she makes sure they all get fed, brushed, and cleaned...she wants to be a vet, like all 10 year old girls, so she reads up on animals and learns all she can :) SO proud of her...cannot beleive she will be a 5th grader in 6 weeks! Take care all and thanks for emailing me your blog info! I miss reading them :)

Chillaxin'

it is so funny how each generation has their own lingo...when I was in school, we sad, "just chill." Now, they say "chillax." I like that one and I hate to admit I say it more than I should...working now, but there are no calls so I am writing in my blog...and getting paid...yeah! Brian and Em' head off to DC this Wednesday...they have been planning this trip for months and I cannot believe it is finally here...I will miss them a lot...I am going to my mom's house for those five days...I am not comfortable being alone...taking my two mutss with me and leaving tons of cat food and a clean litter box for the felines...hope they can manage...I'll check on them Friday or so...anyway, I am bored..it is soooo hot here, I cannot leave the house during the day...the minute I leave the house I am drained...the evenings are not as bad and if it rains I am okay too...take care all :) and Happy Father's Day to all the dads :)

Good news

Well, the calls have gone down a lot with my job, so I have been worried about getting laid off...well, the company did in fact lay off 125 workers, but kept 25 "core" workers based solely on performance and I made the cut! I am very proud of myself, if I do say so myself :) It is so nice to be recognized for doing a good job...when you are chronically ill, it is so much more difficult to feel good about oneself...I mean, this is true for me anyway...there are limits and I feel like less of a wife, less of a mother, less of a friend...at times...not that I am any of those things, but I feel bad about being limited...anyway, compliments do not come y way too often these days so it is nice to be appreciated :) and for something that no one else has anything to do with...this is all me and I love it! I am so dependent on others for almost everything, it is nice to have this...it means a lot to me...just wanted to share :)

Safety Patrol

POsted a new pic of Em' as a"Safety Patrol" at school...she is in training now and will be a full-fledged patrol next school year in 5th grade...she is all excited and takes her new responsibilty very seriously...she HAS to be at school 30 minutes before school starts...it is a mad dash in the mornings, but she gets her butt in gear...all of her friends are on the squad as well, which is extra fun for her. Only three more school days left...I signed her up for VBS here at a local church...it lasts a week...then, my dad is putting her in golf camp for a week...she takes golf lessons now...and I am going to put her in "Cartoon Camp" in July...there are a lot of things for kids to do in the summers here...but they are expensive so I cannot pay for all of them! She goes to DC at the end of June for 5 days...so with all of that hopefully her summer will be somewhat fun...we also take to more movies, the local water park, and other fun stuff to keep her busy. I keep trying to safe the $1000.00 I need to put her in a daily camp, but never can seem to save that much...most local camps want all the money up front...so, these different weekly camps are what we are doing here this summer. Today the in-laws are coming over for a visit...Em' always likes that...I am working now, but I wish I could go to bed...the phones are slow, but we need the $$$ right now! I ordered some new water-colours, which I am excited to get...have some ideas in my mind for some cute pictures...I painted a cute one for my mom this week and am getting to work on other new pieces soon...will post some pics :)

New PH Doc

I never handle change well...my old ph doc moved and now I am seeing his partner...who actually trained him...he is very knowledgable and also much more aggressive in dealing with ph...which is good...he said he wants to start me on viagra in a few months...maybe...or letairis...which I am more interested in...I was on tracleer and felt much better on it...he will do a cath in January and decide then...he said I am his only patient that is on one therapy...my other doc never told me this...my other doc did not seem to deal with the ph the same way this guy does...my other doc was more concerned with my mental state and not so concerned about the ph...this guy is the opposite...he asked my how I was doing and I started to talk about feeling better and less anxious and he was like, "I am not concerned about that..how is your breathing?" So we will see...he made me a little nervous and I did not leave his office feeling as confident about the ph as I normally do...I have been on flolan for 12 years and it has always been fine...he says it is not enough...first time I heard that one...but I guess I need to be brought into the 21 st century here...there are other treatments available and they deal with the illness in different ways...so I need to be open to that...take care all and thanks for reading :)

A little sad

I am looking at all the old pictures from high school and college and I am missing the good ole days a little bit :( I miss being young and healthy and just having fun...dancing and being silly...Facebook is great since it has allowed me to reconnect with some dear friends, but it also makes me very nostalgic and longing for simpler times...I miss a lot of people I used to see daily...now we are all scattered across the US and I will probably never see most of these people again...it is so strange looking at them now with their families...seeing everyone more wrinkled, slightly, a little heavier, for some...like me :) just strange...b/c sometimes it feels like I was back in school yesterday...and here we are all grown up...we are out of each other's lives, yet there is this virtual connection...weird, eh? Just thinking about it...I miss the old me too...I am sure a lot of you can relate to that :)